entropy and rebirth

entropy and rebirth

It was a beautiful day today.  So why am I so “blue”????   I don’t exactly know.  We went to see a wonderful movie today: The Spiderwick Chronicles…..simply spellbinding….lots of excitement, suspense, and surprises (for me, since I never read the book)…and it even made me cry at the end (there was a “father” issue thread throughout the flick….all of America has the “father” issue going on I think)….I have been doing my own 365 day project apart from the Flick’r phenomenon, and I have just wasted an hour (at least) this evening browsing Flick’r’s 365 day pool of people doing the same thing.    I really wanted to sew today, but all afternoon it was so sunny, that I couldn’t bear to be inside, but outside, I just became overwhelmed by the entropy of the winter season….and yet sensed the burgeoning of spring as well….with the destruction of winter comes the hope of spring……I am totally exasperated with my children whom I love, but don’t ever give Linda or I a moment to think.  Today they just drove me nuts…..

Doesn’t help that I am feeling very up in the air over the whole changing jobs thing…..it definitely would be easier to stay in a job that bores me and drives me insane, at least it was stable…..but I don’t think that would be best…but maybe…

Linda found moles had infiltrated the vegetable garden, and she was very sad about this…..she wanted to give up, but she has decided to try another anti-mole campaign…..I don’t want her to give up…..

I am empty now…I had much more to write, but I am worn down to the bones….This entry has been much more “diary” like than I wanted it too…..

Did have a nice breakfast with Noel for his 15th birthday tomorrow though…..That was a great start to a less than lovely ending today…

Here is my very handsome son at breakfast….  with the look I love from his mother